Insight and Clarity?

I am starting to freak about this new baby coming. When you start the nine months you think it is going to be forever before you have the baby and then you get to 4 wks. to go and it seems like it is all happening too fast. I am anxious and excited and scared all at the same time. I just keep thinking about how I am going to get through each day with a newborn again. Fortunately, I have taken some time off work and that has helped. If things work out then I won't have to go back and I will be able to focus on being at home.

I keep telling myself that lots of other women have three or more kids and they seem to be doing just fine. I don't know why I stress so much, it is just my nature I guess. With Jeff's new schedule of working 3 weeks and home for 1 week, he is supposed to be home Feb. 2-7. I am due the 16th. I am praying that this baby cooperates and comes when we need her to. HaHa I know that at the end of the day, the things I am stressing about are not that major.

I realize that my life could be so much harder. I truly am blessed by all that I have. As scared as I am to do this whole baby thing all over again, I told Jeff how amazing it is that I am able to. That God gave me a body capable of bringing life in to this world. I am so thankful for that blessing. I have to remind myself of that sometimes, especially when I start getting down on myself for the toils of pregnancy and motherhood. So this year I am trying to gain some insight into myself and what I really want. What do I want for myself, my boys, my husband, my family? What is it that I can do to make my life better? I know I need to enrich my life spiritually, but there are tangible things I need to do that go with that. I want overall Happiness-emotionally, physically, spiritually, mentally. That's not too much to ask right?